Feel human

I meditate often, I can’t say daily because it’s not true (anymore) but for a year I can safely say that I meditated daily.  The benefits of meditation are vast and I started this habit in my life because I wasn’t feeling like myself, and I had been in grad school and figuring out my self while in grad school was a mission so I needed something to ground me. 

I found that at least 5 mins a day is the best way for me, so it doesn’t feel like a chore. However when I first started it was at least 10 minutes a day to even feel the effects of it. My longest meditation is 25 mins. 

"Meditation allowed me to be human when I didn’t feel I deserved it."

“Thoughts” (as in the actual thoughts that run through your head when you are just breathing and sitting) they are NORMAL and NATURAL. The kind of thought can be problematic. When I meditate, it’s not to change my thought(s) its to let my thoughts be just … thoughts. I found that it was following the “negative, dark, nervous, worrying” thoughts down a rabbit hole that got me into some dark places. 
Meditation allowed me to experience human-ness when I didn’t feel I deserved it. It was a break from my sadness, nervousness, low self-esteem, and I needed it, however short it can be. 

What apps I used and what kind of meditation I found most helpful will be another post.